Taking sanity for granted
Student: In the voice of sanity and disowned sanity, I just realized that it’s so much taken for granted in this practice, at least by me. As you said, it’s always there, but you have to choose it and not just take it for granted because it’s always there.
Roshi: That’s right. Well, we know that taking things for granted is a big delusion. We know that that’s a big no-no, right? But we don’t realize what we take for granted —because we take it for granted! It’s revealing what we take for granted as fact or real, until everything starts falling apart — the fabric starts coming apart — because all of a sudden we see ‘Oh my god, I’ve taken this for granted.’ That’s what I was doing. I was taking the thinking mind that is owned for granted. I was taking sanity for granted. I’d never thought of asking.
I remember once saying, and repeating it several times because it really hit me, that the only thing limiting us is our lack of ability to imagine. If I can’t imagine it, then I can’t make it so, but if I can imagine it, then I can go there and I can kind of work with it. So if I can’t imagine the thinking mind as disowned, or if I can’t imagine sanity as disowned, or being immortal as disowned, then I don’t think to go there. I’m just limited by my inability to imagine it. That’s all. And I never prided myself on my imagination. In fact, I think I have a very poor and weak imagination, so I’m very limited in that way because I can’t imagine it. So these things just have to come up to me pretty much from a kind of innate place because my ability to imagine things is not so great. Probably it also works to serve me that way. I don’t know if that makes sense to you, but it makes sense to me.