If I was to make any kind of suggestion, it’s see it all as Dharma. It’s all Buddha manifesting as Dharma, and what that means is that sunyata, or the absolute reality, is manifesting as this very problem you’re facing. And it’s a learning, it’s a teaching. The manifestation itself in your life is the teaching.
We say that’s the real koan, that which manifests in your life in a way that’s challenging, and you don’t have an answer for and you can’t find a way out, that’s the real koan. The case koans are to help you learn how to become one with the real koan, the genjokoan, the koan of our everyday life.
It’s all right there in the teaching. The teaching is pretty incredible. The more I sit, the more I’m in it, the more I have to take my hat off and put my hands in gassho, for these great masters who have discovered so much. But how’d they discover it? Same way we’re discovering it, by going through it. There’s no easy way.